Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
I hope I never have to lose my son. I could not get over that, could not deal with that kind of loss. That would leave a gaping hole inside of me that would never be filled. I suspect I would become Annabella Sciorra‘s character in What Dreams May Come, trapping myself inside my own personal hell.
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I had a miscarriage before I had Jack. It was horrible and I fell into the worst depression I’ve ever felt. I remember a lot from those days – imagining my future, a future that was supposed to include a child and all that comes with it. I remember aching with loss, knowing I would never know that person and that I would miss out on every single thing that I was supposed to experience. I am thankful to have Jack now; to know him, watch him grow, teach him, and experience life with him. I don’t ache like I did before he came along because I have everything I wanted and more. I don’t ever want that taken away.