A Lot of Heart (sponsored)


This Mother’s Day, I’m working with Clever Girls Collective in support of Macy’s Heart of Haiti to shine a light on the “Trade, Not Aid” program, which provides sustainable income to Haitian artisans struggling to rebuild their lives and support their families after the 2010 earthquake. The program was launched by artist and social entrepreneur, Willa Shalit, The Clinton Bush Haiti Fund and Macy’s. Already, Heart of Haiti has led to employment of 750 artists in Haiti, providing financial benefits for an estimated 8,500 people in the country.

“You’re a cool mom.”

“Well, we’d been talking about it for a while and it’s better than taking him where there are a ton of people all crowded in and…”

“YOU’RE A COOL MOM, admit it!”

“Um. Okay, thank you. I try!”

This is the conversation I had with the nurse at the cancer clinic yesterday. I had recently taken Jack to Build-A-Bear and we came out with a cat dubbed Obi-Meow. I hadn’t intended to get clothing for the cat Jack wanted to make, but I couldn’t walk out of there without the Star Wars gear!

We went because the cat (Fluffy) Jack normally carries around seems to have had a tail incident. I could sew it back up, but it was a cheapy toy that I bought on clearance at the grocery store after Easter last year so a split tail is likely the beginning of the end…and anyway, we were looking for something fun to do together that wouldn’t wear Jack out completely.

So off we went. He absolutely wanted a cat no matter what and we quickly identified one. Jack made a wish on the heart (he wished they could be best friends always), we both kissed it, and then it was put it inside the cat before stuffing it. He then took it to the grooming station and brushed its fur. He can tell the story in detail and never forgets to mention the paw-shaped brush he used.

We tried Darth Vader clothes on the cat but they didn’t quite fit so we moved on to Jedi clothing. That was when we decided the cat should be named Obi-Meow. One of the employees found a light sabre for us, as well.

Jack takes Obi-Meow everywhere now. While heading out the door to the clinic yesterday, he said, “We can’t forget Obi-Meow! Remember when you said she’d want to go everywhere with me?”

Putting together and grooming his very own stuffed animal was special to Jack. He now has something he can take care of when everyone is busy taking care of him, and this has seemed to help his outlook. He’s been more cheerful lately and, while he won’t talk about his treatments or much else, he’ll tell all kinds of stories about Obi-Meow. Somehow that cat is reassuring to him.

Taking Jack to Build-a-Bear was an early Mother’s Day celebration for me. I didn’t get breakfast in bed or chocolate but I got to create a wonderful memory with my son. I saw him in a new light as he cared for his new friend, a friend that will sit with him through the upcoming challenges with his cancer treatment, a friend whose heart will remind him that his mom loves him.

That’s probably more cheesy than cool, but I’ll take it!

 

Heart of Haiti products are available online at Macy’s.com. Each item is a one-of-a-kind design and handmade by a Haitian master artisan from raw materials such as recycled oil drums, wrought iron, papier-mâché and stone. The collection features more than 40 home decor items including quilts, metalwork, ceramics, jewelry and paintings, and is made almost entirely from recycled and sustainable items such as old cement bags, cardboard, oil drums and local gommier wood.

Thank you to Macy’s Heart of Haiti for sponsoring my participation in this “Share Your Heart” promotion. I was selected for this sponsorship by the Clever Girls Collective. All opinions expressed here are my own.

Unresolved

We had a good holiday. I missed Jack on Christmas day (he was with his dad in Washington) but we got to celebrate in our own way when he got back. Christmas day we hosted David’s sister, my sister’s family, and our friend Mike. It was our first time hosting Christmas dinner – with place mats and everything! – and it turned out pretty fabulous, if I do say so myself.

We rocked stockings this year. Our dog ate the stocking I had from childhood (two days before Christmas) and that was really sad. He also ate the stocking I had a friend create for David. Looks like we’ll be getting new stockings… In any case, it felt like a very grown up thing to be in charge of stockings in addition to the Christmas dinner. I was very much a mom, filling them with toothbrushes and hand sanitizer and such. (There were fun things, too, I promise.)

I got really depressed after the holiday was over. I wasn’t sure why at first (other than it’s December and it’s winter and I was tired) but upon thinking it over I realized a few things – the biggest of which is that my family is so small. I have David and Jack and then my sister who lives across the country. My mother is embroiled in her endless medical issues – in for tests every week and firing physicians left and right – and seems to be off on another planet. Spending time with my dad’s parents, while lovely, also underlined the fact that I don’t have a mom or dad to turn to these days. I am the grown up. How did THAT happen?

I then started feeling baby crazy. THAT was driving me mad because, holy cow, now is NOT the time! But despite the million reasons I could list why I didn’t want another kid right now, the little voice in my head and the ache in my chest wouldn’t go away. That just made me angrier – upset at my own biology, irritated at my brain grasping at straws in order to create connections that I seem to be missing.

I feel old. I feel like emotionally I’m being propelled into a reality that I shouldn’t be physically facing for another 15 years. Suddenly I’m worrying about older family members losing their minds as well as their fortitude, worrying about how many childbearing years I have left, and feeling as if I must have missed something in my 31 years. But when and where? My life thus far has been overwhelmingly full. Where is it that I could have possibly squeezed in one more thing? And didn’t I already have my midlife crisis?

Needless to say, the new year is here and I am unprepared. I’m doing what I always do – marching on as best I can – and hoping things fall in line. I just wish I could feel like I have more of a say in where that line is going and what tune is being played.

A Very Ewok Birthday

Happy happy birthday to me!  My cake really made my day!

My husband worked with Jennifer at Beyond Buttercream to design THE MOST AWESOME cake EVER – Wicket the Ewok.  I felt bad cutting into the fuzzy guy but, man, is it delicious!!

Luck, Leprechauns, and Little White Lies

Leprechaun with rainbow

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Jack didn’t want to leave the house to go to daycare today.  He was whining and moaning about how much he HATES getting dressed and how it’s “stubborn” that he has to go to daycare.  I then came up with the brilliant plan of telling him it’s a SPECIAL! DAY!  He perked up and asked what I was talking about.  I explained that it’s St. Patrick’s Day and some people believe that it’s a good day to catch leprechauns.  He had no idea what the heck a leprechaun is, of course.  I explained that they are little people from Ireland who hide a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.  I showed him pictures on the internet, which he loved.  He asked me if leprechauns were for real life and I said I didn’t know and there are definitely some people who do not believe they are real.

I figured he would like this whole idea but I underestimated his enthusiasm.  He wanted to hear all about it so I let him know he should wear green today so he could be extra lucky and maybe catch a “tricky leprechaun.”  They hide and you have to be on the look out, you know!  In fact, I’ve never even see one because they are so sneaky!  Well, he filled in the rest.  These little suckers apparently wear green as camouflage so that it’s difficult to see them when they hide in bushes and trees.  And “no one knows if they are going to be on top of the tree or behind the tree!”

Jack picked out a green monster shirt to wear.  His theory: “Maybe I can scare the leprechaun with this monster shirt and he will run away and leave his gold for me to take!”  Very clever, I thought.  He also came up with the idea of putting traps at the end of the rainbow.  “Well, mom, you just don’t know which end of the rainbow he’ll be at!”

It was so hard not to crack up while he was telling me all kinds of new things about leprechauns even though he hadn’t heard of them before today.  We saw a neighbor’s nanny as we were walking to the car and Jack told her all about the special day and how he was going to catch one of those leprechauns!  He made sure his friends at daycare were wearing green.  I suggested he work together with his little friends and maybe they could find a leprechaun.

I then told him good luck and left for work.

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Hearts and love and all that

I’m not into Valentine’s Day.  Well, except for the candy.  I do love chocolate!  I would not be offended by gifts and such but in reality, I don’t need more shit in my house.  There isn’t enough space to put the stuff I already have!

One thing I do love, though, is helping Jack celebrate holidays.  The advent calendar in December was a lot of fun and prior to that I made goody bags for all of his friends at daycare.  For Valentines Day I got some robot Valentine boxes on sale from Stampin’ Up! and Jack wrote his name on 14 of them for all the kids in his daycare and the daycare next door.  I bought Scooby-Doo fruit snacks on sale to put in the boxes.  All the kids LOVED them and Jack had fun handing them all out, as well.  So cute!

David asked me what I wanted to do for Valentine’s Day and I said “nothing.”  He was a bit surprised, I think.  But I pointed out that we have a mini vacation planned for this coming President’s Day weekend.  We are going to Napa for two days to stay in a hotel, dine at fantastic restaurants, go wine tasting, and get in-room massages.  We planned this without even thinking about Valentine’s Day because we need the getaway so badly!  It’s just a happy circumstance that we can put that lovey dovey label on it.  ;)

So tonight we’ll likely eat some easily tossed together dinner and watch television or a movie while cuddling on the couch with our pup.  Relaxation is the best gift of all!  Happy Valentine’s Day!

Holiday Spirit

I can hardly believe it’s December but here we are.  Our mantel is filling up with gifts, holiday cards went out today, and our Countdown to Christmas Calendar (if you want to buy this, check out my website) is in full swing.

Jack tells me every day before he opens the next box, “I know what’s in there!”  But on the 5th day he was surprised to find not chocolate but a small gift of Gogos.  “Why are they goo goos [sic], mom?” he asked.  “I don’t know, son.  They are just funny little toys that you can play with.”

We are trying to take it easy on the spending for Christmas this year.  I think between the advent calendar and his stocking (not to mention the million gifts he gets from family), Jack will have plenty to open.  He told me what to put on his wish list (with my advice about what was an okay price) and has been asking every day if Santa will bring him this green alien:

Not to worry – Santa totally has this one in the bag (despite Amazon running out of stock!  Santa actually found a better price at Fisher-Price.com anyway!).

Other gifts include (yes, these are affiliate links):

If your kid is into flashlights but keeps killing the batteries, you seriously need to check out that Lego torch – they need to wind it up to re-energize it! Woot!

I’m looking forward to the holiday. I especially like the fact that we won’t be putting ourselves into debt to celebrate it.

A Gift that Gives

Hey readers.  I hope you all will join me in helping my friend and fellow blogger Alecia raise awareness and funds for a rare disorder that her 9 month old niece suffers from called Food Protein-Induced Entercolitis Syndrome (FPIES).  Those suffering from this disorder cannot tolerate many of the proteins found in everyday foods, which can result in uncontrollable vomiting and diarrhea after eating and can lead to dehydration and even fatal shock.  I know it kills me every time my son is sick – I can hardly imagine how awful it is when food is the thing that makes your child sick.  If you’d like to help, there are several things you can do:

Please pass this information on and keep Alecia’s family in your thoughts!

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Big Sale on Stampin’ Up! Craft Supplies

As many of you know, I became a Stampin’ Up! demonstrator a few months ago after a 4 year hiatus.  I am really excited about my return to working with this company – I love the art, the colors, and working with a company that loves their demonstrators and their customers.  They have done some amazing stuff during the time I was away and it just keeps getting better – including their latest deal:

Stampin’ Up!’s Online Spectacular sale starts today!  Receive 20-50% off select stamp sets, fabric, digital scrapbooking software, Big Shot/Sizzix accessories, home decor decals, and more when you buy online  November 22-30.  In addition, all orders over $150 will receive free shipping.  This is the perfect opportunity to purchase gifts for the holidays!  And let’s not forget about the best part of all – 50% off the Demonstrator Starter Kit (that’s $310 worth of products for only $87.50).

Shop now at Ewokmama’s online store to access this promotion (customers who select a demonstrator will qualify for stampin’ rewards/hostess benefits).

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Halloween with Bat Boy

Halloween was busy for us this year.  We ended up getting a ton of use out of Jack’s bat costume.  First we went to the Goblin Jamboree at the Bay Area Discovery Museum where Jack rode a pony for the first time, met up with chickens and rabbits and goats at the petting zoo, got his face painted, and experienced a kiddie version of a haunted house.

When we got home I did a little decorating around the house, including trying out these decals I got from Stampin’ Up! (yes, that is self-promotion right there – I am a demonstrator) and putting together these treat bags for Jack’s daycare buddies.

My employer invited all the employee parents to bring their kids in on October 28th so Jack got to pal around with me at work for a bit.  He had been begging to go to work with me instead of daycare each morning, so I was happy to finally be able to oblige him.  He was very excited, but he got over it pretty quickly and by the second hour he decided to hide under my desk.  He did leave me this drawing on my whiteboard (and asked me to write the names of each alien).

Halloween itself was pretty chill.  All of Jack’s parents got together to take him for a spin around the block.  I think Jack likes seeing the other kids in costume more than anything else – he was done with Trick-or-Treating after a block and a half or so.  He then said he wanted to go home and finish his dinner.  We handed out candy for a while and then Jack went to bed right on time.  It was surprisingly easy…how’s that for eerie?

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Ta da!

Thanks for bearing with me while I get back on track this month.  I know spotty appearances aren’t great, but at least I’m keeping the unread list in your Reader down, right?  ;)

I thought today would be a good day to jump back into things…after all, my website has received a redesign thanks to the work of Cat at RentaGeekMom.com!  Please come to my site to check it out and let me know what you think.  I even have a fancy home page now with links to my work all over the interwebs.  Woohoo!

In other news…

My Mother’s Day was fabulous!  David spirited Jack away with him to the grocery store first thing in the morning so that I could sleep in.  I didn’t expect to be able to actually sleep while they were gone but I woke up to a smiling face bringing me a latte from Peet’s.  David played the role of Mom all day while I lounged in bed – I got french toast and fresh fruit for breakfast and a nap midday!  I can’t remember ever having a more relaxing day.  I love my two guys.

I think I’m finally getting back on track mentally and have a handle on this latest depression issue thanks to a medication adjustment and tight control over my caffeine, sugar, and alcohol intake.  I’m looking forward to summer!