New Daycare

I took Jack to his new daycare yesterday and he immediately started playing and having a great time.  I stayed for about 15 minutes just to make sure all was well and then departed.  He had a fabulous day and when I picked him up he was happy as a clam.  He told his daycare provider he would see her again tomorrow and gave her a hug!  We chatted all the way home about the fun he had and his new friends Flavia and Javier.  It was really the perfect first day.

Today was a different story.  Even though he had a good night’s sleep he woke up in a snit and wouldn’t get dressed again.  It took me an hour and a half to get him ready and in the car and he was crying and throwing a fit about wanting to stay home.  I suspected today’s drop-off would be hard (since he knows what’s going on now) but this was pretty awful.  I felt terrible for him but also upset for myself because I was beyond late for work.  Jack clung to me when we arrived at daycare so of course now I am feeling awfully guilty.

I know he is fine (I have checked up on him).  He always calms down soon after I leave and the daycare transition typically takes about 2 weeks.  Until he settles in, though, I will feel like I’m abandoning my baby every day to go to a job that I don’t even like.  Alas, if only I was independently wealthy!

Closer to Two

Jack is 20 months old today.  As I mentioned to Joe last weekend, he is closer to 2 than to 1.  Where has the time gone?  How did our baby get to be so big?  Will I be sending him off to college tomorrow?

Two weeks to the day after starting daycare, Jack has adapted.  Joe dropped him off with no crying yesterday!  Yay!

Last night as I was attempting to nurse him to sleep, he unlatched and laid his head on my chest, whispering “green yellow green yellow” before latching on again.  It was so cute and endearing.  His brain is obviously hard at work trying to figure out colors.  It’s so interesting to witness this stage of development, when he is caught between babyhood and childhood.  And I feel caught, too; I want him to learn new things and grow but I still sometimes wish we could stay in these moments longer.

We all were in bed by 9 last night.  Jack awoke once and we fell back asleep while nursing.  I woke up not too long after and laid him down before looking at the clock to see how much more sleep I could get before the alarm was set to go off.  It was 7am!  I certainly wasn’t expecting that Jack had slept through the night but apparently he did.  I’ve never had such mixed feelings about getting a full night’s rest.  I really needed more sleep!  In any case, I am happy that he seems to be going back to his pre-sleep regression habits and that we weathered the time change without too much fuss.