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Truthiness Day 24: My Saturn Return Playlist

October 31, 2010 By

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Dear 2008,

You were a year of change.  I was 27 and the term “Saturn Return” fit this year perfectly.  I finally began taking care of myself – attended a Managing Depression class, started taking Prozac again and going to therapy, separated from Joe, moved out on my own for the first time in my life, and fell in love with David.  It was a hard year with so many ups and downs, and yet one of the most important of my life.  I mourned losses, faced bitterness, found hope, and discovered love again in all kinds of unexpected ways.  This playlist will always remind me of you – it runs the gamut of endings, beginnings, and everything between.

  1. We’re Going to be Friends – The White Stripes
  2. O Valencia! – The Decemberists
  3. (If You’re Wondering if I Want You To) I Want You To – Weezer
  4. Young Folks – Pete Bjorn & John
  5. Let’s Never Stop Falling in Love – Pink Martini
  6. Hey Pretty – POE
  7. A Stroke of Luck – Garbage
  8. The Kill (Bury Me) – 30 Seconds to Mars
  9. Extraordinary Machine – Fiona Apple
  10. Struggle – Ringside
  11. Bleeding Love – Leona Lewis
  12. Nothing Better – The Postal Service
  13. Calling it Quits – Aimee Mann
  14. (Don’t Fear) The Reaper – Blue Oyster Cult
  15. Communication – The Cardigans
  16. Island – Heather Nova
  17. The Way I Am – Ingrid Michaelson
  18. It’s Amazing – Jem
  19. Maybe Tomorrow – Stereophonics
  20. Rocket Man (I Think It’s Going to be a Long Long Time) – Elton John
  21. Hanging on Too Long – Duffy

From crying in the bathroom at work to finding my safe space in my own little apartment to gaining an understanding of my capacity to live and love, it was an amazing year.  Thanks for the memories.

Sincerely,
Crystal

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Truthiness Day 13: Catharsis

October 19, 2010 By
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Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Dear Duffy,

I listened to your album Rockferry constantly in 2008 after Joe and I split up.  Not only did your album include songs that mirrored many of the things I felt while going through that break up and starting divorce proceedings (like Warwick Avenue), but there were also songs that reflected my excitement about my new beginning (i.e. Distant Dreamer).  It was an odd time for me – mourning losses while also discovering new, fulfilling experiences.  There was a lot of sadness but also I started to realize my strength and gained new respect for myself.

I haven’t listened to Rockferry in over a year and even then I didn’t hit repeat like I did two years ago.  It’s a great album, truly, and it helped me during a rough chapter of my life.  Putting the album on was nice in the sense that I found out that I had moved on and didn’t feel any need to revisit that time.  I’m a stronger, healthier person now.

Thank you,

Crystal

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To the future

January 6, 2010 By

Is it really, truly a new year?  I am having trouble comprehending that.  Instead of feeling pressed for time as the end of the year approaches, I feel like I am letting days slip by.  We’re six days in and what have I accomplished?  Not a whole hell of a lot, I’ll tell you.  I have some big ticket items that I’d like to see come to fruition this year and I’m itching to get a move on.  On the other hand, I’m still recovering from the insanity that was 2009. and a year of rest sounds pretty appealing right now.

In the realm of things that are moving right along… David had an interview yesterday (and, whew, does that man look HOT in a suit!) and has a list of eight more jobs to apply to today.  Fingers crossed and good thoughts and all that!  Our bank account is surprisingly healthy (thanks, Mom, for ingraining frugality into me from a young age!).  Jack is doing fabulous (potty training being a gigantic exception).  My job is going well.  All good things!

I’m looking forward to this being a year of moving on to the next phase.  I’m hopeful that my divorce papers will finally get accepted by the courts.  David will get a fantastic job.  I think maybe, perhaps, Jack might start using the potty at home and we’ll start ramping him up for preschool.  David and I will tie the knot (hopefully in May rather than October) and go on a romantic, relaxing honeymoon together.  And we’ll all live happily ever after!

That’s what my 2010 fairytale looks like anyway.  What about yours?

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