Jack and I went to the Mother-to-Mother Breastfeeding Support Group today. It was awesome! I got a definite attitude adjustment – hearing about other people who had much worse problems than me really put things in better perspective. It was nice to hear other people say what I had been thinking – that the books totally lie and no one ever tells you how awful postpartum is. So I’m telling everyone now who hasn’t gone through it: it’s awful and it’s worse than pregnancy and labor put together! Besides the pain and exhaustion and the difficulty in taking care of someone else when you are still recovering, there are the hormones, the many things that just don’t come naturally, the conflicting advice from people surrounding you, and the sudden realization that everything you do must be considered in relation to how you can work it around your child’s needs. I think this first 4-6 weeks as a breastfeeding mother are especially hard, as well, since I can’t go anywhere for more than an hour by myself because the kid needs to eat and I am the only person who can feed him! Sometimes I can take him with me, but sometimes that isn’t really an option (or, at least, not a good option). Anyway, it seems like most of this shouldn’t be a surprise to me but even if I knew it beforehand, it hits harder when I’m not at my best and hormones are raging.
Anyway, the lactation consultant told me what I could do for my ravaged breasts and hopefully I’ll have less pain soon. Also, Jack’s latch is much improved and he is on a pretty good feeding schedule now, so it’s made things easier in the breastfeeding department. I must say that I live in fear of the growth spurts to come and thinking about it causes me great anxiety, but hopefully by the time they get here I’ll feel more confident and comfortable about everything so it doesn’t feel so frustrating.
I got out to Target this afternoon (woo hoo! accomplishment!) and bought some nursing bras, which were quite the chore to try on. The Target trip took longer than I expected, and I worried about Jack being impatient to be fed when I got home but he and Joe were soundly sleeping. It was great!
Joe’s friend Steve and his wife Amy came over for a visit tonight. They have three kids and we spent the majority of the time swapping information about birth and afterward. It was cool to have company and conversation. If we can’t get out, we will draw people here! 🙂
My MIL is homesick. She is kind of mopey. Maybe she’s bored, too. I dunno. I would like to do something for her but I’m not sure what. She doesn’t allow us to do much for her!
Jack is awake and alert. This is weird. He generally sleeps all the time but he’s had at least two hours of awake time (without feeding) today. He’s not crying, so I guess it’s okay, but it makes me nervous. 😛