Hello and welcome! My name is Crystal and this is my blog. My chosen moniker is Ewokmama because I am a child of the 80s and I’ve always adored the ewoks (the fuzzy teddy bear guys carrying spears from Star Wars). Ewoks are small but mighty and I’ve always identified with that as a rather small person who has been through a lot of hardship.
Now, let’s go back to the beginning(ish)…
“I had my midlife crisis early and I highly recommend it.” – me (yes, I just quoted myself)
I’ve been blogging about parenthood since my first child was born in 2006. I lived in a fairly remote area of California called Humboldt County, where I had moved to help my husband Joe get his college degree. At that time my blog was a crunchy-working-mom blog and a place where I kept in touch with friends from my beloved town of San Francisco. I reached out to new moms to help them navigate breastfeeding and shared my adventures with daycare and cloth diapering, while also navigating the wonderful world of post-partum depression. Blogging saved me from the loneliness I felt living in a remote area while dealing with a marriage on the rocks.
In 2007 I started the slide into what I call my “early midlife crisis.” That led me to decide I’d had enough of living my husband’s dream, so I negotiated a move back to the SF Bay Area to be closer to family and friends. We were there for less than a year before we split up in the summer of 2008 and I started loads of therapy to get a handle on my depression, anxiety, PTSD, grief over a lost parent, and lingering abuse issues.
I have all the fun!
So I then started blogging through divorce, mental health problems, single working motherhood, and falling in love with someone new right when I least expected it.
I met and married the love of my life, David, in 2010. Yay! I have no idea how we weathered my (seemingly never-ending) divorce and therapy, let alone his losing two jobs and going back to school, while we learned to co-parent together (and share custody with Jack’s dad), but we did and we were damned good at it. Even with all the tough stuff we were dealing with, we had a good life.
Love conquers all! Or something.
At the very beginning of January 2012, we were knocked on our asses with the news that 5-year-old Jack had Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia. This is probably obvious, but I’m going to say it anyway: Cancer completely changed our lives in every way. Coincidentally, it has had a big impact on my blog. I tend to write a lot about how our lives have changed since chronic, serious illness came along and got cozy with our kiddo.
Jack’s treatment lasted three years, and now, somehow, it became a distant memory. We welcomed our second child, Dez, in 2012 and have been relearning how to live a normalish life ever since!
As you can see, my blog is a mishmash of all aspects of my life, and I don’t shy away from heavy topics. My blog has been with me through difficult times and I’ve learned that writing is therapy for me. I’ve made amazing friends all over the world. No matter what it is I’m writing about, I hope to always convey my authentic voice and maybe even help others with my story.